well...here i am again..i don't post often..i don't have eloquence...or knowledge to back me.
yet i must write...for myself...but if you read this, and have similar feelings...welcome.
it is mid december. there have been multiple events. they all are troubling. they all are unfortunate
how many of these events have to happen...and we see the same information, the same chain of events.... but we still believe them...we still react the same way to the staged activities for us to think we saw.
the shootings...the storms...the attacks...the deaths...the entertainment that just so happens to include key places, and names...descriptions... .... really... really? this is getting so tiring. try something new guys! go to a new script! we know! we know what you're doing!!
only now...you've decided to take this to a new height!!  children...at school! how dare you!
i know... you dare...because you have us by the balls.

i don't pretend to know much of anything... i have stated as such in earlier posts... i don't post a lot of essays... because i have too many televisions playing in my head... and i don't always let you know which one is being featured at any given moment.
there are some things that i do know though.....i have learned to recognize when i have been played...and this whole scenario that is unfolding...in a very surreal way...is playing me...us...
i hate being played. i hate being given ridiculous answers for obvious actions.
we've been played. big time.
we are being dragged into group-think.
we are being told what fact, what to believe,and how to react to it.
then we are being vilified, if we ...don't "tow the mark"...and believe like the "dumb-masses"
life is a stage. this was staged
we are the actors... and reactors...
orange hair... tsk..tsk... green please.
jokers.

hey! i haven't written in a while.... not because of a lack of material...
i can't wrap my head around all of this.
fires in colorado, and new mexico,...tornadoes in ontario,...here in central new york the past couple of days have felt like sunshiny hurricanes have been surrounding us!
our fearless leaders are becoming blatantly obvious with how they plan to devour us.

i look at our skies...they are generally filled with white streaks forming a quiet web over our heads.
still....no one listens to me.
so, i say less and less.
and i listen.
i listen and watch.
what i hear and see makes me sad.

people still think they can ...vote... their way out of this.
vote for what?
who ?
why?
it's maddening.....
we are mad....

government...an evil that must be avoided. we were born without it. we have been programmed to embrace it. i will not. people will use the ever ...what about people who will harm , or "dumb people" who can't make good decisions...? really? you've just described the government!
people like to believe in bogeymen, so they can accept something as nefarious as a government.
they can't bring themselves to entertain the thought that maybe, just maybe, we as sovereign people on the land could handle governing ourselves.
would it be a perfect world? no, but when the government protects the people who would harm, or the "dumb people" who can't make good decisions.....it's much, much worse.
i am not a pollyanna...i do not believe everyone is good. i just see the evil people in another light.
most people want to drive on the right side of the road because it's a really good idea, and it's been proven to work. most people want to live, and let live. some of course do not.
that is the chance that is taken in a truly free society.
freedom does not cost.
freedom just is.
but in a free society, i will not force my ideals on anyone.
i'll just write about them here...........

today, i feel an especially heaviness in my being... a little boy in our neighborhood has been fighting leukemia for about 10 months now. he is 7 years old. much too young for pain, never mind the the ever changing list of infections that are bombarding this child on a daily basis.
today i have learned he is back in the childrens' hospital. he cannot eat, and breathing is difficult. at first it was thought that he had contracted hoof and mouth disease. now, the doctors aren't so sure.
he's losing weight, cries when he tries to eat, and his temperature is hovering the 104 mark. his parents are exhausted, as they have 2 younger children at home who need them also.
as we are all in the blog world, focusing on the horrors of this world that have been brought on by selfish sub-humans, today i just want to focus on something outside of this.
this little boy did nothing to deserve this. his voice can't be heard. his parents need care, compassion, and rest.
who here on this planet can give this to them....and others in similar conditions?
there is no answer..that is certain, for if there were, certainly these situations would change.