these past few days have shown major events that have proven to be dramatic to say the least.bombs in boston, explosions in texas...among other places....they are all...horrific. yes. yet...the reaction to the bombings in boston, and the subsequent capture...and killing of the...suspects... have left me angry. we are no better than the supposed bombers when we speak of letting him..bleed out... ramming a red bull up his... .. shoot him in the face...etc..etc.. what the actual bombers did was unspeakable....but wishing the same..or worse on people that have not been proven guilty...is worse.the ones who executed this event got their proper reaction from the masses... they got their energy that they so hungrily crave. i just cannot join in on the ...festivities, because i feel no joy in the ...kill the beast!...mentality. i can't. these are people too... someone's son... brother, uncle...friend... 

did these people do this crime? i don't know... and you don't either. we are wicked little gremlins...

well...here i am again..i don't post often..i don't have eloquence...or knowledge to back me.
yet i must write...for myself...but if you read this, and have similar feelings...welcome.
it is mid december. there have been multiple events. they all are troubling. they all are unfortunate
how many of these events have to happen...and we see the same information, the same chain of events.... but we still believe them...we still react the same way to the staged activities for us to think we saw.
the shootings...the storms...the attacks...the deaths...the entertainment that just so happens to include key places, and names...descriptions... .... really... really? this is getting so tiring. try something new guys! go to a new script! we know! we know what you're doing!!
only now...you've decided to take this to a new height!!  children...at school! how dare you!
i know... you dare...because you have us by the balls.

i don't pretend to know much of anything... i have stated as such in earlier posts... i don't post a lot of essays... because i have too many televisions playing in my head... and i don't always let you know which one is being featured at any given moment.
there are some things that i do know though.....i have learned to recognize when i have been played...and this whole scenario that is unfolding...in a very surreal way...is playing me...us...
i hate being played. i hate being given ridiculous answers for obvious actions.
we've been played. big time.
we are being dragged into group-think.
we are being told what fact, what to believe,and how to react to it.
then we are being vilified, if we ...don't "tow the mark"...and believe like the "dumb-masses"
life is a stage. this was staged
we are the actors... and reactors...
orange hair... tsk..tsk... green please.
jokers.

hey! i haven't written in a while.... not because of a lack of material...
i can't wrap my head around all of this.
fires in colorado, and new mexico,...tornadoes in ontario,...here in central new york the past couple of days have felt like sunshiny hurricanes have been surrounding us!
our fearless leaders are becoming blatantly obvious with how they plan to devour us.

i look at our skies...they are generally filled with white streaks forming a quiet web over our heads.
still....no one listens to me.
so, i say less and less.
and i listen.
i listen and watch.
what i hear and see makes me sad.

people still think they can ...vote... their way out of this.
vote for what?
who ?
why?
it's maddening.....
we are mad....

government...an evil that must be avoided. we were born without it. we have been programmed to embrace it. i will not. people will use the ever ...what about people who will harm , or "dumb people" who can't make good decisions...? really? you've just described the government!
people like to believe in bogeymen, so they can accept something as nefarious as a government.
they can't bring themselves to entertain the thought that maybe, just maybe, we as sovereign people on the land could handle governing ourselves.
would it be a perfect world? no, but when the government protects the people who would harm, or the "dumb people" who can't make good decisions.....it's much, much worse.
i am not a pollyanna...i do not believe everyone is good. i just see the evil people in another light.
most people want to drive on the right side of the road because it's a really good idea, and it's been proven to work. most people want to live, and let live. some of course do not.
that is the chance that is taken in a truly free society.
freedom does not cost.
freedom just is.
but in a free society, i will not force my ideals on anyone.
i'll just write about them here...........

today, i feel an especially heaviness in my being... a little boy in our neighborhood has been fighting leukemia for about 10 months now. he is 7 years old. much too young for pain, never mind the the ever changing list of infections that are bombarding this child on a daily basis.
today i have learned he is back in the childrens' hospital. he cannot eat, and breathing is difficult. at first it was thought that he had contracted hoof and mouth disease. now, the doctors aren't so sure.
he's losing weight, cries when he tries to eat, and his temperature is hovering the 104 mark. his parents are exhausted, as they have 2 younger children at home who need them also.
as we are all in the blog world, focusing on the horrors of this world that have been brought on by selfish sub-humans, today i just want to focus on something outside of this.
this little boy did nothing to deserve this. his voice can't be heard. his parents need care, compassion, and rest.
who here on this planet can give this to them....and others in similar conditions?
there is no answer..that is certain, for if there were, certainly these situations would change.

well... the time is coming up for a big memorial. on sunday, the ones still trying to spoon feed us the fairy tale of 9-11 will celebrate the dead. they will read those names, and hypnotize the sheep, to keep them asleep, and bo peep will never have to find them. vigilant sheep will be asked to rat on their fellow sheep, if something looks suspicious.. like a wolf, in sheep's clothes.. or a sheep in turbans....or.. now, to our shock and awe.. we have become our own enemy. a sheep in jeans and tee shirts! nikes.. or sketchers! what to do! what to do!

i think i'll read another story that has more truth to it... mary had a little lamb. it's fleece was white as snow. and everywhere that mary went the lamb was sure to go. it followed her to the site one day, which was against the rules.. because when the lamb saw what was there, she saw that they were fools.

How Dare I: More...

How Dare I: More...

As you can see, I don't make a lot of posts. I have a hard time expressing the things that are worth expressing. It's not because I don't want to, or don't have strong views or concerns. It's just that there are so many , that how does one begin. The things that are happening, and will happen are so great, and life altering, that I spin most of the day, because ..this can't be happening, and .. yet it is. AND....I HATE THESE THINGS. I hear planes go by.. I wonder, are these friendly emissions, or sinister. I hear choppers go over my house.. very low, and heading north.. Fort Drum is to the north of me. In the morning, I look at the sky.. how many white plumes will I count intersecting today? Food shopping is a hunt for something we will eat, and we can afford. I look to the news feeds.. will there be an alert every hour.. every morning? What is next?

Then, I look at my kids. They don't need this. They need to play, laugh, fight, plan a party eat a burger and fries. They also need me to laugh with them. Tomorrow, I m going to laugh with them.

How Dare I: Anonymity and Questions...

How Dare I: Anonymity and Questions...

there are more and more dances to learn in this blog world! the more i dance with new blogs.. the more steps there are ! this is necessary, and i will try..yet i feel so incompetent! i have only just recently realized, that i have always been an outsider in this world.. this spaceship...planet earth. i used to believe i was wrong in my perceptions, and opinions. i have come to understand i was very close to reality, in an unreal world.

trust... not any more... there's really no one to trust. words are corrupt.. they can not express ideas, or thoughts, the way we see them in our inner core. the way we hear these things we call words, is suspect also. we speak to people we don't know in a certain way, and to people we know well.. we speak in an entirely different manner. after a long visit with an old friend.. do you ever feel tired and exposed because of the words that were exchanged? it could be because some of the words were corrupt, and our inner self feels betrayed somehow. this is just something i have been struggling with lately. how about you?

people are going to believe what they want to believe.. and that's it...most people are sleeping sheep... i am so disappointed...my words are ignored or smirked at.. at best... : [

oh.. i am sooo glad that karl rove cleared up that whole water-boarding torture thingy! doctors were there to make sure that the suspects had no long term affects.. like they can tell that in just a few moments after the procedure.. and that the suspects were well aware that they would not die from these proceedings..i am truly comforted.. all is well now...

never let a good crisis go to waste... what crisis? you ask... just pick one, and follow the path of crumbs... or scum...

those who put out the peoples' eyes, reproach them for their blindness.... john milton

this year is ending... will a new one begin? so many things on the hor-i-zon, cause me to believe the events, and information on these events, keep the"new" from us, that we will not be able to experience the "new" in the way we desperately need to in order to keep from going into arrested development.. what kinds of things can we embrace to keep the elite away from letting us experience the "new"... happy "new" year.. join me.

today, i am reading a post on a favorite web-site.. as i read, certain nerve endings start to rear up.. i think to myself.. i have known this .. how? i think i know someone who is experiencing this manifestation, in their life.. i can't be sure.. but certain key words and phrases are coming up time and again.. and i realize.. i am learning , and beginning to be able to apply these findings to my surroundings, and experiences....the journey is real...

this is new to me.. and my knowledge and information is slim.. but .. i love to learn more.. and sift. i hope the people i follow, and those who may follow me learn as we go, also. t his i do know.. i will never be controlled by another s ' ideas, or interpretations of anything. that is being free. so, i am unlearning right now.. it's frightening, but necessary at this time in my life. i may come back to things i dismissed.. i may totally eliminate things after a time.. but i will always be grateful for all who have helped me along the way.. that includes you.. thanks friend...

the things i hate.. are the "things" that have passed for truths, for millenia.. i have just started this journey, and have much to unlearn, and relearn...